My Toastie Outlet ♠

Im confused.
When we were showing our cold shoulders,
You said, if we break up i [me] will hate you like fuck.
But i didnt hate you, i even granted your wish.
But after that,
You came back telling me you want me back again.
Im confused.

I don't wish this relationship to continue just because you miss people accompanying you.
To fill up the loneliness in you.
Im sorry im too dumb to understand your every means.
Now that i know all your doings have a particular good reason behind it..
I hope to use a period of time to think.
Breaking patching is just too much for our relationship.
We had it too many times.
Im tired.
Would you give me that period of time to take a break?
Let me think about it.
Let me see how serious you are.

Im getting the attention i seek.
But i know i couldnt provide anymore to them.
I know i can't and won't return the affections.
Im just an attention seeker.
Ya.
A deceitful one.

Lets just remain like how we are now.
You are free to do and be with whoever you want.
I have no right in keeping you too.
To me too,
This period of time,
I hope you give me.
To test us, to test each other, to test the love.
I dont know.

10 months of break.
Actually i don't know what to do.